Our “final home visit” was last night. I was all excited about getting one step closer to being foster parents, only to find that only God knows when we will be certified. I’m not good at being patient. I know that God is in control but my heart sank when she said that she didn’t know when she could write our homestudy or when it would be approved. I know that hearing “your next in line” was supposed to be comforting but it wasn’t. I just can’t explain the desire that I have to be a mom, even if it’s to a child that will go back to a birth family. I know that separation will be difficult but I never expected this wait to be so painful at times. I know that there are children out there that need to know what love is and Shaun and I are filled with love we can’t wait to share it.
Please pray that God will fill the pit in my heart. Please pray that I will be patient and trust in the Lord. Please pray for the Children that God will place in our home and in our forever!
Knock knock!
4 years ago
I remember coming to the end of our fertility treatments with nothing to show for it and feeling so hopeless and empty. But God reminded me time and time again that "in the fulness of time" He was going to bring about His plans for our family. At the time I couldn't imagine what that was going to look like. Just like when His son came to earth - all the circumstances had to be in place. God never wastes the waiting. It is all to bring you and Shaun to the place of His fulfillment for your family. It is an appointed time, very specific. He has chosen it carefully. Just as He has chosen the children you will foster and one day adopt. You would never believe it now, but it will not be one day late. He makes all things beautiful in His time.
ReplyDeleteI am praying for you! I have two sons but I lost my third during birth. I am now pregnant again... it is hard to wait and trust God, but that is all we can do...
ReplyDeleteI love the previous comment "God never wastes the waiting" so true. "He makes all things beautiful in His time" such comforting words for both of us!
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